Dear Narky Larky,

One year ago today, my whole life, my entire way of living was altered forever. Every rule, was no longer valid, every bit of advice was worthless.  But in a surprisingly degree of effortlessness, it all became 2nd nature, almost instinctive. You didn’t have to try to make me fall in love with you, I just naturally did. We didn’t have to play the laws of life, or the cannons of “our word. We just were, and that’s what I love/miss the most about us.

I remember like it was yesterday, a  night of nerves, seafood and pool.  Both dressed in blue, a night that ended with a peck on the cheek, and after that we never looked back.  We had no clue of what to expect, and I think the excitement of it all, caused us not to care. We joked about “not packing a bag”, and for the the first time in a very long time I felt connected again, not only to a person, but back to this world.

It was the small moments that counted the most: You buying me a shade holder for “MY” side of the truck, Your face when the crazy bird tried to eat me and my jambalya, helping me take out my contacts!, or the day you gayed me with the nail buffering. I still remember the first time I came over to your house and swanged on the back porch and held hands for the first time.

You tore down a wall that exposed a little more Justin, a Justin once again capable of loving, one that would no long sit back and wish, but one that would get up and do.  I owe you so much, I really do. I will forever be indebted to your kindness, your understanding, your love. I still can’t believe how ungodly good you were to me. I miss your smile, your laugh and your touch.

I still live with the side effects of your departure. Some days it’s truly a struggle. If this was paper then it would be soaked in tears.  For some reason I just can’t seem to break these chains. No one’s to blame, it’s just life has us on two different paths, and I can only thank God for the time in which our paths crossed. I’d give anything to have a chance to make anything wrong–right with you again.  Please remember that I WILL always love you.

And BTW,  Happy Anniversary


Silly Boy.


Random Laws of the Land

Here are a list of random laws from the from places that I have lived and/or planning on moving too.

North Carolina: Home State

1. Persons in possession of illegal substances must pay taxes on them.(so what is the tax on LSD, and Coke again?)

2. Elephants may not be used to plow cotton fields.

3.Severing Alcohol at a bingo game is not allowed.

4. If a man and a woman ho aren’t married go to a hotel and register themselves as married, then according to state law, they are legally married.

5.It is unlawful for two people of the opposite to sleep in the bed together unless they are married.(includes brother and sister)

6. It’s iilegal to have sex in a churchyard.(I wouldn’t be worried about going to jail for this one I’d be worried about ending up someplace else)

Florida :Current Residence

1. Doors to all public building must opwn outwards(I constantly test this one)

2. It is iilegal to kiss you wife’s breasts

3. You are not allowed to fart in public after 6pm

4. Men may not wear any kind of strapless gown in public.(sooo…. straped ones are ok?)

Cali: Future Residence

1. It is illegal to molest butterflies ( I don’t even want to know WHY this is a law)

2. Bowling on the sidewalk is illegal.. (Dang, seems like fun)

3. Peacocks have the right of way to cross any street…

4. You are not allowed to used you own restroom is the window is open.

As you can realize, most of these laws are unforced. I will say that in NC, recently a deputy Sheriff, got fired, for living with her boyfriend, which technically is against the law. Her boss, the County Sheriff, was the epitome of OLD SCHOOL CONSERVATIVE, in regards to laws.  So do you have any county, city or state laws, you would like to share?

PS. In Cary, NC, there’s a city regulation, against the color orange and red. YUP McDonalds and Chick-Fil-A all have this Green-Blue Sign, instead of their trademark colors and logos.

Don’t Complain about FOOD COST: WENDY’s

Ok so… I went to Wendy’s today to get a little food. I like Wendy’s, it’s on the few fast food places that I like to eat, mostly because I can get a decent sized grilled chicken sandwich, a baked potato and a low calorie drinking option for a decent price. But I’m not here to praise Wendy’s,  I’m here to inform you how unpractical, and unreasonable some of their practices are, well just mainly one, but I’m sure they have more…

I dined in, ordered my usual order(see above), and after my meal, was tucked away in the bottomless pit I call a stomach, I went back up to get a re-fill. I told the guy what I had to drink and handed him my cup, without the lid. Instead of him taking the cup and re-filling my drink, he grab a completely brand new cup, and new lid only to give me the same drink again. There was no need for him to waste another cup, wasting paper and plastic in the process.

The reason why this sorta bothers besides the fact that it’s wasteful and bad for the environment, is that I know soon then later, Wendy’s is going to raise the prices of all is items on the menu, to cover OPERATING cost. Well guess what Wendy’s you are the one that’s causing your own demise by, giving customers another cup for a refill on a drink. How SILLY… what is my CUP contaminated? To many germs.. WHAT?

Good Grief..


in response to What do you do


Run in an open field as hard as you can and scream

Lay out and look at the clouds

Wish for some one to come rescue you

Sing at the top of lungs

Dance till your feet hurt

Sleep and dream of… Happiness, Peace, Magic, Love

Look for your Dreamlover

Stop and thank God for every breath

Lie and think.

Find yourself.

Realize you didn’t lose your self, they did.

You.. Press On.

I am ADDICTED to Wii Fit

Okay I workout.. I’m talking heavy weightlifting, cardio, cross country, swimming.. I even plan my day around going to the gym. You know what.. I am hooked on Wii Fit. This little board is a miracle worker of all sorts. Even after a grueling workout, I come home and hop on this thing, whenever I can.

Now finding one, was harder than peeing out cup full of kidney stones, but it was all worth the effort (I hope that Soccer Mom is doing ok, I didn’t mean to taze her for that long)…

Here’s Brief Run Down..

4 Types of Activities

Yoga–Strength–Aerobics–Balance Games

You earn credits for the amount of time you spend during the game, which in turn unlock new exercises, and then when you start the master them, you can unlock, extras such as more duration, more reps and advances modes of play.

The really thing neat thing, is the exercises and games are fun and challenging, even for semi fitness buff like myself.  I’ll be honest, while I respect Yoga, that’s an area where I don’t really have a strong footing, but not for to long. The poses are really helping me become more flexible and I can see the results in the gym when weightlifting.  Also due to the COB(Center of Balance) measuring most of the exercises have, you start to get competitive, with yourself and others to score the perfect 100s.

For me I know it’s not going to shed off, dozens of pounds, but its tweaking my body in all the right spots and showing me where I’m weak at. How steady can you hold a pose? Do you stand with you weight evenly spread out, or do you lean one way? Hmmm

Its so much fun, even though this things tells me I’m Obese everyday, and the first time I stepped on it, it made a UH noise, Gee Thanks WFB(Wii Fit Board). The WFB begins to grow a personality as it talks to you everyday, usually giving you tips, making jokes and leading you through your daily body test.

If you have a Wii, by all means get one of these things, if you can. It’s worth the 90 bucks. You will get hooked.. Look at it.. it’s calling your name.. STEP ON ME…

Out of Gas…

Hi all, 

Well some of you may have read about, or experienced the recently gas scare with Hurricane Ike, and the shutting down of the refineries in Texas.  Well I am here to inform you all that my city, Tallahassee, FL has ben affected the worst by this.

We did make National News, from Yahoo and the Associated Press, about the prices that some of the gas stations hit here in Tally. Some places going as far as 5.50 per gallon of gas. You can read the entire article here. Hurricane Ike felt from a far.. 

But unlike most please around the US that suffered from this scare, we haven’t recovered yet. WE BARELY HAVE ANY GAS in the city. Seriously each day, there are maybe 3-4 gas stations across the city that have gas for a couple of hours if at all and then that’s it. They only have regular Unleaded(so if you have a luxury car that “requires” Premium, you are out of luck. Most of my classmates are riding on fumes, and will not be attending class because they can’t.  I need to take a picture, but all of the stations remove their prices from the signs and wrap all of the tanks in yellow caution tape.  Apparently if we don’t get gas soon, we will make national news again for this fiasco most likely rioting will ensue.. 

For once I wish i was exaggerating. This is absolutely insane. Even the big boys such as Sam’s Club and Costco, can’t get gas the city to the consumers, how can the BP’s Chevon’s do it. 

I personally just so happen to fill up last Wed before this, just on the whim, that well I needed gas. I am bless to have done so, but my tank in my car(I love my Honda), is only but so big. It’s scary to actually see how dependent we have become on gas, and how big is plays a part in our every day living.


What do you do…

What do you do when…

You try your hardest, but nothing seems to work, nothing as at all.. All attempts to connect fail and fall short..

What do you do when..

You put your all of your heart into it and its still not enough and live everyday in an ache

What do you do when…

When you go untouched, unappreciated, unloved

What do you do when…

You don’t want to give up, shouldn’t give up, can’t give up,  but you don’t know where else to go, or what else to do, or who else to talk to.

What do you do when…

When the close are distant, when the friendly are cold, when your rock is sumerged

What do you do when…

Want to cry, shouldn’t cry, can’t cry

What do you do when…

You want to find peace, be given peace, be at peace

What do you do..